I wish I could say what I wanted without you getting mad.
Stop thinking too much.. i have to remind myself she chose me for a reason. Above all those other guys. She loves me and no one else. I have to trust her and im the one she wants. I need to remind myself that im good enough.
I can’t lie. I’ve thought about suicide.
All my insecurity comes from being lonely and unloved.
Am I boring. Am I old. Do I not entertain you anymore. Am I not enough. All that just because someone will give time to someone else or something else. Can’t help but overthink because you’re insecure. You catch yourself venting like me on this site because you have no one to turn to. You tend to think how hopeless you are. Insecurity takes its toll on you. Consumed by every little thought. Makes me want to just smoke again or just drink my feelings away. Walk in the midnight and not even care if anything happens. I guess I just overthink too much. I’m an unhappy person who just wants to be able to feel love. I’m not desperate.. just deprived.
Giving someone so much time and attentiom that when they aren’t there you feel lonely as hell. You start to mope and depress. You start to think and the loneliness just gets to you. You give up and you say fuck it and just sleep. Well at least you attempt to sleep..
If someone wants to talk to you they will make the effort to. They will drop everything and just talkt. Fuck everybody or everything else. They will ignore it and actually talk to you. If they are really that interested they’d go the mile. That’s only if they want to.